Tuesday, December 18, 2012

Why I Am This Way...

Had a doctors appointment this morning for a routine physical.   My husband's work has this rewards program for having healthy levels of blood pressure, cholesterol, weight, etc.    The main thing my doctor was concerned about was my weight.  No surprise there.   He said I need to work a little harder to get my BMI into at least a healthy range.   Ok... so the rest of my day went like this...

I had to fast for my doctors appt for 12 hours which meant no eating after 8 PM last night.   I have a bad habit of eating late.   I only ate a salad for dinner.   So after my appointment I was very hungry AND I had no kids with me, which happens... like... NEVER!   So I decided to run through the McD's drive through and get a breakfast sandwich and coffee.   While waiting at the "2nd pickup window"... apparently a new thing at the Chesterland McDs for those who have to wait, I saw a Grand Opening sign that showed they were having a promotion for the month of Dec.   Today's special was $1.99 happy meals.   My kids hardly ever get happy meals because they are so darn expensive.  So with this being affordable, I thought it would be a special treat for today.   I took the kids there for lunch and had a McDouble meal.

THEN... I had no idea what to make for dinner tonight.  When my husband woke up, I asked him, "if I could make anything for dinner, what would you want?"   I really had no taste for anything specific (probably because I had already eaten my days worth of calories from breakfast and lunch)... after much discussion... he decided he wanted chinese.   Even though it was totally a bad idea... I couldn't sit here and watch him eat chinese (the kids got pizza)...so I ordered a meal too. 

Yep, that explains a lot doesn't it.   Granted not every day is like this!!  We've actually been trying to eat much, much better!!   I just thought it totally ironic considering my doctors advice this morning.  

Saturday, December 8, 2012

Cleaning Tricks

Today we asked our children to clean their rooms.   One of my children happened to clean their room in record time.   Too fast, actually.   Being the smart mom that I am, I walked over to the closet and voila!  I found all the "stuff" that was previously on the floor.   My husband and I chuckled to each other.   Don't they realize that we were children once too!  We know all the tricks :)  

I read once a quote that "Cleaning is just moving things to less conspicuous places".   There's some truth in that and it made me laugh.   The closet, however, isn't less conspicuous enough!  

Have a blessed weekend!

Monday, December 3, 2012

Dr. Jekyll and Mr. Hyde

Do you ever feel like Dr. Jekyll and Mr. Hyde?   Meaning your personality quickly switches from one place to another?   For me, it does sometimes.   And there's nothing more sure to make my personality switch than a trip to the grocery store toting five children along with me through the aisles.   Such an occurrence happened last week.   Within a matter of 15 minutes, I went from being completely "normal" to an impatient yelling mess.   I don't know what happens or why on some days it seems that I can "handle" the minor inconveniences of children, but there are those times where it just sends me into overload.  

Have you ever taken those personality tests?   I guess I'm specifically referring to the Myers Briggs test -- the one that determines if you are an extrovert or an introvert?   When they state extrovert or introvert, they're not relating to whether or not you like to hang out with people, but where you gather your strength... by being with other people or in solitude.   Years ago, pre-children, I tested as an extrovert.   I loved being around people and would jump at the chance to get together with friends because that's where I would find my energy and strength to recharge.   About 2 years ago, I took the test again at work and it determined that everything was the same except for this one area.   I tested as an introvert.  I found it interesting because I think, now that I am constantly surrounded by people, albeit miniature ones,  I prize and treasure my time alone.  

I think that's the only way I can explain why I all of sudden get frustrated with the little things.   Usually my best resolve is to just spend some time alone!  I'm sharing this because I hope in some way you can relate -- specifically that I'm not the only crazy one out here :)   I guess I found that my other resolve is, no matter how short I think the trip in the store will be, I need to use the in-store child care!!! 

Funny note about this though.... I couldn't remember whether Dr. Jekyll was the nice guy or Mr. Hyde.   So I searched for it on the web prior to writing this post.   When I read this explanation I actually rethought my use of this analogy:   "The novella's impact is such that it has become a part of the language, with the very phrase "Jekyll and Hyde" coming to mean a person who is vastly different in moral character from one situation to the next."   (Wikipedia)  Made me laugh... surely I'm not referring to being "vastly different in moral character".   Well at least not in the way they refer... I guess I hope you know what I mean.

So onto other things....   the past week or two has been a difficult one.   Our family has never quite been in such financial straits that it really takes some adjusting to.   I have been all over the map in this one in terms of where I believe God has placed us and what His plan is for us.   I'm pretty sure I've sinned more than a few times too in not trusting God and questioning His character or at least how He's not living up to my expectations of Him.   But it's amazing how God is SO faithful through it all.   Our pastor spoke a message on Sunday that related EXACTLY to that point.   I have had expectations and a hope that God would be a certain way when we were in need and provide for us how I wanted Him to.   I've been sorely disappointed that God has not done it my way.   He really spoke to me through that message and used my husband later that day to speak words of wisdom to me as well.   I had a moment of surrender since then.    Then God showed today that He will take care of us, once again, in our current situation.   God has provided many hours of extra work over the next 4 weeks.   Words cannot express my thankfulness and relief. 

Sometimes I can be so short sighted.   I get so wrapped up in the momentary situation that I lose my focus on Him as my source.   I tend to doubt Him and get angry.   And yet... still... He is there.  

I'm starting to realize what Paul was feeling after being a Christian for many years.   You'd think after being a Christian for so long you would "be better" or "be further along"... but all I realize is what a wretched man I am (Rom 7:24).  

I write this post humbly today.   I hope that in my weakness, you will find encouragement as we all seek to find strength in Jesus, our true hope.   And as we try to be more and more like Him, we will continue to fall short.   But I find hope and cheer in this... He disciplines those He loves (Pro 3:12).

Love you all... hope you are having a fantastic week!